Excerpts from the Web diary of Dannille Vanderpool
In her own words
By DAN ROSS
Register Online Editor
September 18th, 2009
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Dannille Vanderpool kept family, friends and those who donated money to help her battle cancer up-to-date on her fight through a page on the social networking Web site MySpace. In the wake of her arrest, Napa police say she has confessed that she does not suffer from cancer. Her are some excerpts from her online diary:
Nov. 20, 2008 — “I have had two heart attacks, two seizures, numerous infections from surgical sites, and kidneys that barely function. I am ready to say enough is enough. My body is tired, my body is weak, and my mind and heart are finished. What I am saying could be misinterpreted. I am not saying that I am done fighting for my life. What I am saying is that I don’t want any more chemotherapy or radiation. There has to be a better alternative.”
Dec. 2, 2008 — “Last week I said no more radiation, well a few friends talked to me and I decided to try 5 more days for them. I did the radiation for my loved ones and not for me. I would have left my body alone.... I was unable to go today, because I was throwing up so bad that I couldn’t. Tomorrow will be another story. I will go in for one more and 3 more after that. Maybe I can go every other day, so I am not so sick. The truth is the radiation that is making me sick will not kill my tumor. My tumor is not killable. My tumor in a year or less depending on its progression will kill me.”
Dec. 3, 2008 — “Today a little bit after I got home I started to have a serious talk with my daughter about our future. The future of Mommy without treatment, the future of what might and could very likely happen, and where my daughter would go ... A friend who does not think I am honest about having cancer confronted me today. She knocked on the door when I was in the middle of this conversation with my daughter.
My friend has accused me of some awful things and my stories not adding up. I don’t know what kind of depraved person would makeup a story about cancer, inflate a story about cancer, or make something as horrible as cancer out to be worse that it could possibly be. How on earth can you make cancer worse? I don’t know how to handle these accusations and I don’t believe I should have to.
On Friday I am going to my doctor for this particular friend and getting a note that states my oncologist has been treating me for eight years. ...
For 8 years I have battled for my life, not only for me, for my beautiful daughter, and my friends and family. I have been through hell and back for anyone to question that has no idea the many nights I spent throwing up, sick as a dog, unable to keep food down for days, amounts of medications that made me out of my mind; Plus the loss of 40 lbs. at almost once, the loss of hair 3 times, and the amount of friends I lost that couldn’t handle the disease.
My body has been through hell and so has my mind, not to mention that to be accused of faking cancer and what my family and loved ones have seen me go through and I have put them through. It is a question of my character and sanity.
That is not okay. That is not acceptable and anyone who would ever question this while they question my loyalty to their friendship, should also consider their loyalty.
Maybe I haven’t been as open as I should have been about my situation but that is my right and my prerogative.
To question someone to this magnitude when you are supposed to be friends and love the other person is not only unacceptable it is unbelievable during one of the hardest weeks of my life. That isn’t friendship or love.
So now after all of this today I still need to finish my conversation with my daughter.”
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starling wrote on May 17, 2009 6:26 AM:
JustMyyOpinion wrote on May 17, 2009 7:46 AM:
I hope she gets the help she clearly needs. "
JustAnotherManicMonday wrote on May 17, 2009 9:50 AM:
lavgirl wrote on May 17, 2009 10:07 AM:
JustMyyOpinion wrote on May 17, 2009 1:41 PM:
Baraki wrote on May 17, 2009 2:23 PM:
dellasumbrella wrote on May 17, 2009 3:30 PM:
Just having a diagnosis doesn't qualify as a defense, as far as I know. "
skiph wrote on May 17, 2009 4:19 PM:
napasfinest wrote on May 17, 2009 8:19 PM:
JustAnotherManicMonday wrote on May 17, 2009 8:58 PM:
Detritus wrote on May 17, 2009 11:18 PM:
She should have her child taken away from her if it hasn't already happened. Unfit mother. This poor little girl will never have a fair shot at life now. "
Ephemerol wrote on May 18, 2009 4:38 AM:
Cellardoor wrote on May 18, 2009 12:37 PM:
gaslight wrote on May 18, 2009 12:44 PM:
Ephemerol wrote on May 18, 2009 7:22 PM:
Dr. Robert Hare, a recognized authority on psychopaths (and a fellow Canadian) has written a book for the lay person called "Without Conscience: The Disturbing World of the Psychopaths Among Us," as well as a book on psychopaths in the workplace, "Snakes in Suits: When Psychopaths Go To Work." "Without Conscience" is an excellent introduction to the topic that give some warning signs.
Recovering from a sociopath:
First of all, understand that you're not a fool, you were targeted. Sociopaths are expert manipulators. They spend their whole lives perfecting their acts. There are millions of sociopaths on the planet, and each has conned hundreds of people. You are certainly not alone.
Secondly, get help—the right help. Do not expect your family and friends to understand. No one really understands unless they, too, have been targeted. If you see a therapist, make sure he or she knows what it's like to be involved with a sociopath. Some therapists are excellent, but others really do not understand the trauma suffered by victims of sociopaths.
http://www.lovefraud.com/12_leavingAsociopath/recovery_from_sociopath_psychopath.html "
napa1234 wrote on May 18, 2009 10:04 PM:
But more importantly, if she is so mentally ill and needs so much help, why on earth does she still have custody of her daughter. She should also be charged with child abuse and mental cruelty. But lets protect the child from any further abuse and remove her from this crazy womans care. "
cutiepie wrote on May 29, 2009 1:13 PM:
valleygirl wrote on Jul 8, 2009 1:09 PM: