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Surrendering to motherhood
Resistance is futile
Monday, October 06, 2008
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As a mom to three girls ages 8, 11 and 14, I find myself dashing through life like an endurance event — an Olympic decathlon 24/7, 365 days a year. It’s a daily race over hurdles and obstacles, often ending by collapsing on the couch sometime after 9 p.m.

But there’s one thing I could do that would make my life so much easier.
Surrender to motherhood.

If I surrendered to motherhood, my family would be the ever-so-grateful recipients of 100 percent of my time and attention. Like the genie from “Aladdin,” their wish would be my command.
There would be no conflicts if I surrendered to motherhood, because I would have endless patience and energy to spare.

My children would bask in my devotion and my husband would probably appreciate some extra love, too. Even the dog would benefit from some one-on-one time.
I could be Supermom.

Need a batch of homemade cookies made last minute before a school event? No problem. Sixth-grade Room Mom? Sign me up. Wake up daily at 5:30 a.m. to make hot breakfast for five? Call me Julia Child Huffman.

If I surrendered to motherhood, I wouldn’t want to have this job at the newspaper. I’d stay home. All the chores and errands I normally cram into the end of the day would be leisurely accomplished while the little darlings are away at school.

Clothes would be perfectly ironed. The exploding closet upstairs would be neatly organized with labeled bins for each type of toy. School photos from the current year would be properly framed and displayed. I could finally figure out a window treatment for that odd-sized window in our bedroom. I might get back onto that treadmill. Or not.

Oh, the projects I would cross off my list, check, check, check!

Yet I resist surrendering completely to motherhood. Between homework, laundry, dinner, school lunches and volleyball games, I still want time for me.

Time to read a good book or trashy magazine, time to e-mail a friend or scrapbook. Quiet time. Time to just think. Time to daydream.

All the parenting magazines say the same thing. Mom needs to make time for Mom. Well, it’s a lot easier to write it than to live it. By nature, we are the caregivers, the nurturers, the motherers. We ought not do it. We can’t help ourselves. Our lives are one big traffic light permanently set on green for go.

Yet I know what I signed up for. These kids were no accident. There was a plan, and it’s called a family.

People to build a life around, and love and cherish, no matter how mad they make you or how much they talk back to you.

It’s about saying goodnight with a kiss and good morning with a hug. It’s cheering them on at that volleyball game, even when the ball doesn’t make it over the net, taking their pictures in the exact same spot on the first day of every school year, and even writing a column about them.

Which explains the title at the top of this column.

If I can pull it off and my family can put up with it, this column will provide a glimpse into the here and now of family life and how at least one mom puts family first, but tries not to leave herself behind.

It wasn’t easy getting here. Like talks between five superpowers, negotiations began and compromises were agreed upon. There are some ground rules.

If any of said family members, including the grownups, gets kicked out of school, arrested or does anything else really stupid, I’ll probably have to leave that part out.

Gratuitous quoting of certain teenage children will be avoided. I won’t intentionally humiliate or rub salt in any wounds. I’ll avoid naming names when I can.

For the record, my column will be by no means a complete picture of the family. In the interest of space and well, interest, I’ll excerpt, edit, condense and otherwise mangle our happenings to fit into this space.

I don’t expect writing this column will be easy. It may not even be fun. I don’t know — I’ve never done this before. (And after drafting my first few columns, I’m telling you Kevin Courtney makes it look a lot easier than it is.)

Come to think of it, this column could be one big flop. Maybe only five of you will read it, and the Register online commentators could descend on it as though it were prey.

So in advance, I apologize to Don, Annabelle, Allie and Ava. I hope I don’t embarrass you or cause any unfortunate nicknames to be earned. Thank you, my dear family, for indulging me. I love you and would do anything for you. I give you almost everything of myself.

In the end, I surrender, but I don’t give up.
16 comment(s)

DHuffman wrote on Oct 6, 2008 10:58 AM:

" Can't wait to read more. Oh that's right I'm living this too! Go for it, we love you too! "

NVR-Diane Montanez wrote on Oct 6, 2008 11:53 AM:

" Good job on your first one, Jennifer! You'd make Dr. Laura proud with this column and I look forward to reading more. And yes, Mr. Courtney is a genius. "

kevin wrote on Oct 6, 2008 11:58 AM:

" Kind of like a "Family Circle" comic but without the pictures?? "

winemd wrote on Oct 6, 2008 12:08 PM:

" As a stay-at-home mom, I have to say that the picture presented is not very realistic. We struggle with the same issues as "working moms" because we work just as hard, for no pay, and not much appreciation, at least in the short term. I wish I had endless time and patience just because I am at home full time, which really means: at the store, at the school, getting kids places, etc. I can't remember the last time I ironed anything. And it's not as if I am sitting around. Time for myself is at a premium, as well. And guess what else? I don't love it all the time. It is like every other job in the world - there are good days and bad days. This job is not for every mother. It is way harder than I thought it was when I was pregnant for the first time twelve years ago. It doesn't work for every family for various reasons (financial, temperament, etc.). I believe that every family has to work out the best situation they can under their circumstances, so I am not trying to denigrate working mothers at all. I know they are trying their hardest to do the best for their families that they can, just like I am. I guess I am just trying to paint a more realistic picture of moms whose work is running the household. "

GerryKP wrote on Oct 6, 2008 1:40 PM:

" Great first article! I look foward to reading more! I think this is a great outlet for you and could be a fun and learning opportunity for not only you, but for others out there. I do not feel that this article is "un-realistic" at all. I look at it as an editorial. No preaching, just sharing your family and life experiences. If others readers out there are so inclined to do the same thing, there are free blogs
that they can sign up for and share with friends and family and the general public. But lucky for us, we get to see Jennifer's article in the Napa Valley Register every week! "

Loveone wrote on Oct 6, 2008 4:26 PM:

" I am not sure that I really understand this column and what it will be all about...what is the intention...what audience are you trying to reach and what are you wanting them/us to hear? I am a stay at home mom as is "winemd" above. I am certainly not supermom, either. Reading this just left me going "hmmmm". Are you happy? Are you complaining? Are you both? Why should I "tune it" to read them? "

hoozcryinow wrote on Oct 6, 2008 4:39 PM:

" I loved it and am looking forward to future installments! Winemd: I don't think that description was SUPPOSED to be realistic. The grass is always greener, as they say.
Jennifer, fine job and that's coming from someone who is just wrapping up their career as a working mother. With my youngest having just turned 18 and my oldest being 28, my title is soon to be shortened from 'working mom' to just 'working'. NOW is when one get's all the ME time one wants, but guess what? I don't want it anymore!!! "

winemd wrote on Oct 6, 2008 4:51 PM:

" Fortunately we also have the ability to comment and present our viewpoints on this thread. I was in no way trying to say she was preaching, and I don't think she really thinks that being a full time mom would always be perfect, but it gave me an opportunity to present "the rest of the story..." This is one of the great things about this format, and I am looking forward to hearing what she has to say. I am glad to see something about "the family" in the newspaper columns, and I am glad that the Register allows us this forum to comment. I haven't "given up", either. BTW, Jennifer, it looks like more than 5 people have read your column already! "

Maya wrote on Oct 6, 2008 5:19 PM:

" I'm a crappy mom when I work. I can't be good at both. If I concentrate on doing well at work, my family suffers. If I concentrate on being a good wife and mother, my work takes the back burner. I am one mom who struggles juggling both roles. I would rather have one or the other. Ironically the phone just rang with a call about a meeting I'm scheduled to go to in an hour, and my son just asked where his homework is. My littlest one is asleep; I'm barely keeping it together. Somehow I've got to feed my family dinner tonight before this meeting. That's on top of remembering all I'm supposed to for work! I love work, I really do, but it's too much of a stretch. My kids will resent it, I know. They deserve more time and attention from me. Not ALL of my time and attention, but more of it than I give while I am distracted with work. That's the honest truth. I can't have it all and eat my cake too. I don't want other mothers to feel badly because they can't hack being so strung out too. "

mamyt wrote on Oct 6, 2008 6:24 PM:

" OO the "Mommy Olympics" these are always good entertainment whether it's watching them in action, hearing moms "complain" about all the gifted classes they have to take their kids to and now reading about them every other week in our very own NVR. "

tcrandellgarza wrote on Oct 6, 2008 9:34 PM:

" I really enjoyed your article, and I bet hundreds have read your article, they just may not all be able to leave any comments, or, ironicly enough, they may just be too tired(especially the moms). I have to say, motherhood is the most rewarding job in the world. It isn't always the easiest, but I cannot remember what life was like before them. My girls are 13 and 16, and they are tough. They are also very loving and easy at times. The good times make up for all the hard ones. I am a single working mom, and I have to say, I also feel like you cannot give your 100% best if your working and vice versa. BUT....the reality of it is you have to feed them and put cute clothes on them, sports, school stuff, you know, just necessities. So I work hard, and a few extra hours on some evenings, and sometimes I get off work at a decent time, so that I can make them dinner and just be there while they get their homework done. My job is also to teach them that we do have to work for a living and be able to pay our bills, and put money into a savings. This is our job to teach our children that they actually have to work hard for what they want in life. They may not marry into it. And I don't want them to think otherwise. So if you have to work and be a good mom, it's totally possible. You can do both, and I have been for 13 yrs. now. "

imyourneighbor wrote on Oct 6, 2008 11:30 PM:

" I look forward to your article. I do believe the more real you are... the more people will like you column. Everyone goes through the same sort of things and if it becomes too "perfect" people will know it is false.

Good luck. My partner and I are eager to have a family soon. So your advice will be one that I am listening to. :) "

3kids wrote on Oct 7, 2008 6:22 AM:

" There are actually some gret ways currently in Napa for Mom to make time for Mom. Each of us has a unique story about being a mother and each of use chooses something different. IT would be refreshing to hear about how mothers are supporting each other - working or stay home - to get thru the experience of pbeing a parent. Maybe the paper could highlight some of the ways Napa moms do this, instead of just ruminating on the experience. And I don't think anything about being a stay at home mom is leisurely and "check, check, check". "

Maya wrote on Oct 7, 2008 7:04 AM:

" My family did get dinner last night, but not until after my meeting. It does work out with a lot of help from my husband. "

winemd wrote on Oct 7, 2008 12:55 PM:

" tcrandellgarza, your post got me thinking about what being a full-time mom teaches my children. More on that later... It boils down to there are many ways up the mountain, I think.
i like 3kids comment about a forum for sharing our strategies, successes, and asking for input. Many of us have come up with some really creative methods, I am sure.
On a side note, I don't like the terminology of stay at home vs. working mothers; maybe working in the home vs. out of the home. But then you have those who have an "outside" job working at home. Very confusing. And I hate the "mommy wars". If we listen to each other, we have more in common than we do different. I think we waste a lot of time if we argue about which is better or stereotyping the "other" way. Each family is different and each individual has to make the best choice they can. Luckily, most of the time, we can change if the needs/circumstances arise. "

NVR-Dan Ross wrote on Oct 7, 2008 1:00 PM:

" A forum for moms sharing strategies, successes, troubles, solutions and more is coming soon. Jennifer's excellent column is only the start.
If you have ideas for the MomsTalk Forum, send them to me at dross@napanews.com, or to Jennifer at jhuffman@napanews.com "

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